..........F&*ked up........
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Things are getting worse..........i could be compared to like the former soviet union, on the outside everthing looks fine................what you see is just a facade .............deep down inside its crumbling threatening to implode, everything is going wrong, studies in particular.........procastination is now my official activity at home..........productvity is abysmal, its a miracle if i can study even for two hours a day. comp is still not working properly, i am typing from school now..... school which i find tortorous just to step in to.. but i have no choice........i pretend that everything is fine when it is not.... its so painful..........really to just drift through life.....with no purpose............ study? whatfor....pple tell u that studying is supposed to be the best times of your life....I say YEAH RIGHT TO HELL WITH THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Call me childish or whatever u want.....but i really beggining to believe that i would have been better off i had gone to poly instead. YOu may sae that no matter where you go, stress will always be there........yeah thats true....its inevitable..........if only doctors could invent a cure for something called stress........yes that deserves a noble prize for peace...........IT would give millions of people a peice of mind that they including me desire.
Today my teacher asked me if everything is fine, i told her that things are fine........but deep down i dun feel like that........... SOCially, if i had to take a test regarding my social side, i would probably get an F for failure grade........ Screw IT TYPING about my social life just ABSOLUTELY PISSES ME off.
you noe i had the urge to just let all my emotions out in school that would mean a volcanic eruption that would prolly unnerve my classmates.......so i have no choice but to tolerate it...........damn it tolerating all the shit that happens to you is tough.
The only good things that happened to me.....i am thankful for the few pple who do treat me as friends...thanks a bunch....... words cannot express my gratitude.
Bah i have ranted long enough..........to all those who may be offended by what i type.......just try to understand.....i have already kept vulgarities to a minimum........PEACE PEEPS , OFF TO SLACKING LAND
2:22:00 PM
